alex slowly nodded before he felt henrys soft lips against him. his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. alex sat on the burning hot plastic of the chair, his hands fidgeting with each other as sweat dripped down his forehead. but its what you were thinking right? he could tell june was fed up with him cutting her off. driving a new masareti down a dead end street "i love you so bloody much it hurts. tommy was tall, taller than alex, (who wasnt) with fluffy brown hair, soft brown eyes, with multiple piercings. thats why she kissed meshe wouldnt have just- just done it? henry gave alex a look he could not read. it was a rather warm fall day, and alex had just gotten back from what felt like the longest day ever. mindlessly, he ran his hands up and down on his bare arms where junes hands were just. why? "don't. don't touch me. go to sleep alex.. it does not go according to alexs plan. henry was sure he would do anything for this man. he watched with pride in his eyes and his boyfriend moved across the stage, taking his diploma, and doing a dramatic gesture of pumping his fists in the air. once he saw his dad make his way towards the front door saying something along the lines of picking up his bags tomorrow while the kids are at school, he bolted up, running to meet his dad at the door. henry- i thinki think we should get a divorce. alex really really did not know where these words were coming from. and besides, i said i was sorry, what more could you want from me. alexs heart wholly broke. the girl, jordan, either did not hear him or just did not care because she stayed planted in her seat. he dug his nails into his skin drawing blood from the crescent shaped scars on his palms. instead, with the sounds of alexs pleads of sorry and please forgive me, and one last final push, june, close to yelling, GET OUT!. but loving him was red. you were not asking for it. Official lyric video by Casting Crowns performing All You've Ever Wanted (C) 2013 Provident Label Group LLC, a unit of Sony Music EntertainmentiTunes: http:/. and i got scared because im selfish, and a horrible person who lets horrible things happen to them and soon- soon youre gonna realize all of this and leave me and im gonna end up just like my parents. it was far too hot to be completely covered with a graduation gown but who was he to complain, on such an important day in his life. alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. 5. tommy is that what you want to hear? he immediately pushed his arms to wrap around himself, letting his tears fall freely, sobs shaking his shoulders against the couch. she continued to kiss him, despite the unrequited attention. he wasnt sure if he was being honest. and if you possibly think, in any world, that this would make me stop loving youthat i could ever stop loving you at all, then you are sorely mistaken, henry smiled, pulling alex into his arms. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. he had ran out of the coffee shop and all the way back home to the brownstone is probably less than 5 minutes. being bibeing who i am- it . was he crying? it really wasnt a big deal it just kinda put me in a bad mood. henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. tommy skateboarded, played the guitar and drums, and was way to occupied being the cool kid on campus to worry about his studies. he took off running up the stairs, passed june, straight into his room, diving under the covers. 6. henry. i was talking alex! "He had it bad for you forever. but that doesnt mean anything. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. and because alex would do anything for a little male validation, he completely and utterly folds. being bibeing who i am- its so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who im with, it feels like im losing that part of me, he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, and i just cant do it anymore. you areselfish,you are afuck up,youruin everythingand it was your fault things didnt work out with james, okay, june emphasized every insult with a shove until alex was practically out of her room. alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. 5. tommy i could never ever be mad at you for that, becausei love you.. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there infront of you - YouTube My baby My baby AboutPressCopyrightContact. they were, and still are, polar opposites which alex believes is what makes them work so well together. why do you have to be so sensitive all the fucking time.. Work Search: im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. 2. june he let out a small cry, sounding almost like an injured puppy. memorizing him was like We bring you the song's Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords sung by Taylor Swift. he couldnt get the image of previous events out of his mind. Work Search: just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. i know. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. 4. liam the moment we have all been waiting for. henry im sorry. Ending so suddenly. where he made new friends, and he only got minimal amounts of homework compared to june, and he could stay up until 9 oclock watching television. he made a brief list in his mind. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. 3. nora as sins ended so suddenly you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! though that thought quickly fizzled out as sleep overtook him. im sorry.. i just don't think i can do this anymore liam- i love you so much, but it's so hard. alex turned away from liam, throwing his head up towards the ceiling, feeling all the tears rush down his cheeks. as well as 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. he let out a small cry, sounding almost like an injured puppy. all he wanted was for it to be a good day, he would have taken a decent day at best, but all he got was horrible. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. june talked to him about his unhealthy coping mechanisms and how he needed to control them but june probably couldnt care less about him right now. but thats not true. he was such an important part of my life and he justnever really wanted me at all.. he pushed . did anyone notice all my titles being taylor songs?! he held alex. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar trying to know somebody you've never met and its so much easier to not let it all happen to me, and trying to leave you was so selfish of me, but its so much easier. he went back to his room, choking on his own breaths as he struggled to breathe. i know im not the best at showing my love, but that doesnt mean anything.. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. she didnt stop. he took off running up the stairs, passed june, straight into his room, diving under the covers. and that brings him here, hobbling up the stairs. The Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords ends here. i could never ever be mad at you for that, becausei love you.. 5. tommy once he knew he was alone, his legs gave out, forcing his body to the ground. her definition of horrible was getting put next to someone she didnt like in one of her college lectures. he held alex. he didnt care about that right now. you know thats not what i think, i never said that-. Memes | Lyrics | TikTok Trends | Instagram Filters. 3. nora he pushed himself up on his tiptoes letting his lips meet tommys. he was almost sure he did. he was almost sure he did. liam was only a friend. i was talking alex! The original title of the song is Red. 95 guests he stuck the side of his head close to the bars on the stair railing trying to listen in. dont touch me. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, 1. ellen and oscar dont. About the project, he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. his expression was empty as he stared ahead, his body curling in on itself on instinct. it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. All the words to your old favorite song. he moves towards alex, putting his hands around alexs bicep. he was only partially aware while the principle gave a speech. what? as well as i love you so bloody much it hurts. you have not been a bad husband to me in any way. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. This is just a preview! tip: hetalia f/f sort:kudos, 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed+ 1 time henry gave it to him. 95 guests but thats not true. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to . i actually also had a bad day too you know it was- he started, but was quickly cut off. it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. Work Search: i guess i'm just worried, but i'm sorry. i'm so sorry, i don't mean to make you feel bad. oh losing him was blue like i've never known he didnt care about that right now. the argument was promptly finished with a resounding slap echoing through the house. alex stayed with tommy for another full 2 months before june forced alex to break up with him after hearing one of their fights during holiday break. Losing him was blue like I'd never known. but somehow, its just always my fault, right?, no i never said that tommy please, i promise. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. i messed everything up, and now youre mad at me. it wasnt a big deal. and realizing there is no right answer But loving him was red, red, red. alex refused to believe nora really thought this. the only feeling worse than lying about him and liam was the feeling of jordans lips on his in the next second. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. Songs lyrics and translations to be found here are protected by copyright of their owners and are meant for educative purposes only. liam was only a friend. Fighting with him was like, trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer. faster than the wind passionate you were not asking for it. how much longer do you need to discover yourself. Work Search: he couldve cried on the spot. alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song. he immediately leapt off the stage, pushing his way through the crowds of people, taking as large of steps as he could to make it over there. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. im sorry. alex stood up, moved upstairs ignoring henrys shouts. Terms of use, yeah, he spat out. after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. LocalNews - Modern WordPress Theme. yeah, anything, alex whispered, more or less breathless, promise youre not mad at me? he asked. by now alex was aware of a few things. alex has a horrible day at school. forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. he was practically vibrating with joy as he led his senior class in moving the tassel, then leading them into throwing their caps into the air. tommy was tall, taller than alex, (who wasnt) with fluffy brown hair, soft brown eyes, with multiple piercings. he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. he met her eyes, scared and tearful, but she did not hold his gaze. you are going to stay here and you are going to talk to me. 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